CuTie_bHedZ’s Blog

I am hapi yet incomplete–i never expect to have a bf here to be apart of open minded society and more liberated one.Before im just telling to myself that i want to have only filipino bf coz i feel that they are more easy to know and get along with.-But i discovered in the long run that more of them its hard to explain yet undefined..im hapi yet incomplete becoz i am too far from my family and i missed them so much–im hapi in a way that somebody is with me,get along with cheer u up,wipe your tears,embraces when you need to be warm,my friends is with me not only my bf but yet im incomplete.Anyway i know the fact that i have to and eager to be apart to my  family because this is for them and specially my parents whos now getting older and i want them to be happy and give my helping hand as long as i could–but this is life God really dont want me to have an easy life and happy life in just a snap of my finger he want me to sacrifice for it but then i am willing to accept whatever it is God knows best–

———jenz is my boyfriend name i like him so much he is not reach guy he keep on telling  me that he is guapo,nice,smart and clever but he said he is poor heheh– but i really dont expect to be with him forever i just wait when is the good time and who is the right man for me anyway im not in a hurry..and for now i just wanna spend my life with him happy and contented even if i am far with my own family its fine for me coz he is with me he cheer me up,i can talk to him about my probs he is willing to listen and gave advice..but still i try not to fall inlove because i know this will not last long it is just for a moment so all i need to do is to spend every moment to happen–coz im just scared to fall in love and hurt again so i will try not to–

—i have my cousin fe and wela(friend) but we are not the same likes specially going to hang out–mostly they spend there weekend here in my room–i love to going out and have some fun and my bf supported me he is willing to take me out as long as i will be happy but i want also fe and wela come and join and my bf asked me to convinced them but i did and its like its doesnt work they dont want so maybe we could still be together if im staying so i have to talk to my bf to have his weekend in my room sothat fe ,wela, me and my bf still together sometimes and have fun–

—sometimes we cannot decide to let people get in to,becoz we have different likes and dislikes so maybe we have to respect whatever it is and understand–it was just sometimes i missed those company when i skip one weekend to them but i have to give time both for me to satisfy also and see each other still—

i was thinking of the coming big event  for me to know and discover one thing that eversince i havent yet experienced. from my past boyfriends down to my experienced i havent seen any uniqueness and something that could make u get tru –everytime that valentines came there´s only one i wish for you wanna know what its is??hmmm–something that make girls important to be loved not by doing something but its just a thing also to express how you meant to be together as a partner–i havent wish for perfect match its was just as long as they care about you and respect you that would be fine.and i havent wish for a big and romantic date as long as you are happy to be together even sitting anywhere with a lot of people i dont care as long as he is proud to have me and no care about people around..

Having valentines once in a year is quite important for a lover and this is the time also all i wish is to be happy even in a simple way now for everbody who dont know about what i supposed to tell is that in my past bfs almost 10 i havent received one thing that i ever really wish for.the thing that even on the street you can pick it and hand it to you with matching happy valentines thats why i really feel regrets of those terrible boring life during valentines or whatever ocassions it is–

here am i telling you that eversince in my life i havent felt like this when it comes to date or something-he is joker and barely easily get mad,he is sweet,caring open to everything and one thing he is a jerk but you  know what there is one thing i liked him most being kind and knows how you feel..and i´ve special thing from here that  eversince i wish someone to give to me–hmmm you know what it is??? heheh a white rose sound dramatic but i liked it he imbraced me and said happy valentines the thing that i really dont expect to happend on that time but it was–oh i loved it and im happy now–hehehehhe-even if he is a danish but one thing i would like you to know he is better than my past pilipino bfs–he knows what i want and he respect me—